happy birthday sheep!

Happy Birthday , SHEEP @ CHANXIONGYAN

i'm sorry i wished you late last night , FORGIVE ME T.T just got back from camp , then have to settle the photos and stuffs , forgiveeee me forgiveee me (!)

will date you and maggie mee out one day for a belated birthday celebration , dont angry :p

loves ,

hweihng.

失眠

凌晨3时17分, 虽然双眼有点儿疲惫但我真的一点儿睡意都没有。

我又失眠了

不是因为上网超过睡眠时间而睡不着，我很早就躺在床上了只是我的脑子就是爱在不恰当的时间做不恰当的事，它竟然马不停蹄地在幻想在计划大考过后的日子要怎么度过。没办法了，于是我把 p1wimax 打开，再用手机上网但最后发现我真的太精神了所以，打开了电脑写部落格，反正很久都没写了。

说真的，时间真的过得很快。在我们不经意的时候就这样悄悄的从我们身边溜走。我还记得大考前的那种心情，真的很压力很压力，然后我在想‘啊，一个月的考试，一定很难过’ 很难过 ， 现在想起来，一切都没有我想象中的复杂，难受。 转眼间，已来到最后第二科的考试了。就在明天，华文试卷就在明天。正确来说，应该是几个小时过后吧。本来还害怕闹钟不会响，然后会迟到学校考试，现在我想这个焦虑可以被抛进垃圾桶了吧，还有一个小时半就是原本应该起床的时间了。

说到华文考试，我还真的蛮内疚的。因为我根本就没付出过，我甚至连翻阅都懒惰，是不愿意吧。至于名句精华，更不必说了。别人说我是个完美主义者，其实我觉得这个是个好事，同时也是种坏事。好事就是我会把所有的事情做到我满意为止，就是我所谓的完美。但坏事呢，就是有时做某件事，比如说画画，设计或什么的，我会因为一点小瑕疵，就把整个东西删掉或丢掉然后重新做过。还有，考试也一样。如果我觉得我拿不到我要的成绩，我宁愿不去碰那一科，我宁愿放弃。

明年，是新的一年，新的开始。我希望我能改掉缺点，加强优点。然后在新的生活，新的圈子里，做一个更好的自己。还有啊，要开个属于自己的银行户口了，完完全全属于自己的户口。要在明年开始存钱。我原本打算进一间电影杂志公司做主编的秘书，然后就跟随她去做采访。因为采访的对象是导演还有电影人之类的，所以会学到很多。而和那公司的主编谈了一阵子后，她也愿意给我这个学习的机会，其实我真的感激不尽，但因为那公司距离我家实在有点太远，所以父母会担心哪，这念头就被取消了，可惜。但我也会在明年一月开始打工，大多数在sunway pyramid 的某间餐厅打工吧，因为我不喜欢卖衣服 -_-

p/s : 还有啊紫玲，别当夜猫子了，会熬坏身子的 :)  ♥

until being strong is the only choice you have

never been that tired in my life before , i'm exhausted , physically and mentally.  i've no idea why but i was a bundle of nervous just before the science exam. ''perhaps you never got below an A before in school's exam that's why you are now afraid that you couldn't afford to get an A in spm?'' that's what my friend told me and i was like , maybe? but at the same time , i was asking myself why i was paralyzed with fear. see , the answer was i didn't prepared well. i just marked my paper one , and my heart sank . i got 44/50 for my paper one , horrible shit. 

exam is really driving me crazy , 2 weeks plus to go and i was like , alright just endure and everything will be fine. ohyeah , i never thought of i'll miss my tuition teachers so much. that day was the last day i went to that tuition , and the moment the tuition ends , a gloom came over me. i was thinking bout , heyy , no more going to this place every now and then anymore , and memories started to play like a film in my mind. and only i realised , i really miss them a lot , although is not the end yet , but i know i won't be seeing them so frequently anymore. they gave me a lot , indeed. 

teacher , thank you 

for everything :)